To my unborn child ...

I’m still at a loss for words. Many times I think that I am dreaming and that this is so unreal. Me, out of all people, and all my friends, I ended up getting pregnant. I never thought that it would happen to me, right now atleast. I always said maybe around 25 or 26 is when I will have you. I wanted to do things the right way. Even though this isn’t the right way there is noone else i’d rather be going through this with, or having a child with then your dad. The moment I heard your heartbeat I instantly fell in love. I knew for sure that you were there, that I was actually carrying you inside of me. I love you already. I rub my tummy every night thinking about what you will be like, who you’ll look like, us playing together, your laugh, your smile, everything. I pray each and every day that you are nothing but healthy, I pray that I can give you everything you ever want/need. I doubt myself at times, but I pray that I be the best mom that I can be to you, and doing so you will love me just as much as I love you.

(Foto is een foto van mijn kleine mannetje met de pretecho, bij 28w1d)